COMING ON IN LEAPS AND BOUNDS

I was really looking forward to my third session with Suzy – I have to confess that I hadn’t achieved all my objectives from the session before but I had made some progress.

Suzy asked me how I was feeling about everything, and the one word that came to mind was ‘knackered’. Work has been driving me insane, I was in the middle of a receding migraine, life was feeling incredibly stressful. The day before I spoke to Suzy I had been almost in tears in front of the PC trying to figure out how to get various web editing software to act in the way I thought they should, given up and decided not to look at the blasted site again the rest of the week.

Which was a good place to start really. Suzy looked at my feelings about the web site and I admitted that I had felt like giving in and ‘pulling the plug’ on Relentlessly Positive because the existing software wasn’t what I needed, and I just didn’t know what to do. The one thing I had already learned though, was that it’s GOOD to ask people for help, which is what I did, and how I came to be working with Karen all week to get some templates that I could use to get things started.

The other thing that came to light was the underlying ‘you always give up’ feeling – since childhood I have been admonished for not seeing things through to the end, giving up too soon, and being a ‘quitter’. I was determined that wasn’t going to happen with Relentlessly Positive…Suzy turned the whole argument on it’s head. So what if I flit from idea to idea, and don’t always see things through. It means I try lots of different ideas – until I find something that works. I’m not the sort of person who puts up with intolerable situations and moans about them, I change direction if things aren’t going well.

She came up with a motto for me – change tactics if it’s not working and ask for help often!

Working with this, she decided that in order to tackle my tiredness and make me feel a bit healthier, we’d look at making some small changes to my lifestyle, and only doing each one for a short time, to take into account my short span of attention! My goals were, for three days at a time:

1. Have a rest from Relentlessly Positive, a bath before bed and an early night.
I ticked that off my list very early on, as I had a stinking migraine and had just about enough of looking at a computer screen. Done and dusted.

2. Have breakfast every day for at least three days – fruit and yoghurt.
I had thought my diet was a bit chaotic and not eating breakfast at home meant I would often grab rubbish at work instead. I confess that there was a slight delay with that one due to running out of fruit, but for the last two days I have had blueberries, raspberries and banana with yoghurt for breakfast.

3. Walk 30 minutes a day in my lunch break.
I had meant to start this after the bath and bed three days – however the weather in Cambridge put paid to that…torrential rain isn’t conducive to a brisk walk. I took the positive step of rejoining the office gym for three months, so I can do 30 minutes on the treadmill, and that starts tomorrow, overlapping with the breakfast. I have to do something, I tried on some clothes in a changing room with surround-sound mirrors and I have BACK FAT! I may be anti-diet but I still shuddered.

4. Do a 30 minute reiki session on myself.
Usually this would be hard – it’s difficult to do a full on reiki treatment with a husband in the room watching WWE wrestling on TV. But he’s away all week (snif) so I have no excuse. TV off, reiki on.

I’m meeting Suzy in London soon to talk strategy about how she’s going to help me (that little help word again) to get into freelance writing and up the income. I’m really looking forward to meeting her, she’s lovely!

To recap on my objectives so far:

Get to grips with Food Philosophy

I’m doing this – I’m recapping the things I did previously and it’s feeling easier. I haven’t been overeating and I haven’t been drinking so much either. Progress – baby steps!

Sell the house

We’re back with the last estate agent, who we liked and trusted, and we have had one viewing which went well. I’ll keep you posted on that one!

Make another £500 a month

I’ve done some PR for someone which earned me a bit of spare cash, and if I get the job I’m applying for I’ll get a bit more money too. I’m also talking to Suzy about freelance work so I’m making progress.

Get my site hits up to 100 a day

I’m biding my time. The new site is looking good but I need to make sure it’s spot on, then launch, do another press release and see how it goes. It will be so much more professional when it’s re-launched, I can’t wait!